I Will Not Run Away

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I Will Not Run Away

I’ve watched the sky in all its sorrow

Dressed in their darkest grey

With no signs of tomorrow
I’ve felt their cool drops land on me
They weren’t enough to give me
Any bit of relief

I know I’ve let you down
You’ve watched me drift away
And sink to the ground
I know I’ve lied to you
Said I wouldn’t give up
Yet I did not stay true

It’s like I lost all hope, it’s like I ran away

Years passed like the moon and sun
Eventually I found the courage
To face the world
Knowing there was something to be won
Although doubt sometimes sneaked up on me
I knew soon I would claim victory

I know I’ve let you down
You’ve watched me drift away
And sink to the ground
I know I’ve lied to you
Said I wouldn’t give up
Yet I did not stay true

It’s like I lost all hope, it’s like I ran away

Time will bring us together again
This time around triumph will be the end
I won’t give up
I won’t look the other way
I’m saying this now, today
I will not run away…

I know I’ve let you down
You watched me drift away
And sink to the ground
I know I’ve lied to you
Said I wouldn’t give up
Yet I did not stay true

It’s like I lost all hope, it’s like I ran away

© 2015, 2017 C.A. Barnes

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So Cold

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So Cold

There you are, standing
Over there, standing
Why are you serious
Why are you so serious all the time
What is your agenda
What is your goal
That you plan to seek, looking so bold

I wish you weren’t so cold
I wish you weren’t so cold

You look so stately, all in gold
Stately, all dressed in gold
Were you ever a prince
Were you once a king
Who marveled in wisdom
Who marveled in great things

I wish you weren’t so cold
I wish you weren’t so cold

There you are, all alone
Standing, all alone
No life around you, no one around
No life within you, just a mound
Of gold
Only dressed in gold
Just dressed in gold

I wish you weren’t so cold
I wish you weren’t so cold

© 2015 C.A. Barnes

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You’re Not Free

 

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You’re Not Free

I’m trying to come out
But I’m a prisoner of this dictator
Called doubt
And it won’t
And it won’t
Even let me shout

I met it many years ago
After this monster called failure
Stoled my soul
Then I was
Then I was
No longer whole

It told constant lies to me everyday
Keep staying down
Over here, you’ll be safe
And it never
And it never
Went away…

Until one day
I heard the voice of a dove
It sounded grand
It sounded like love
You’re not free
This great voice said to me
You’re not free
Look at your reality

Don’t submit
Don’t succumb
You were meant to live in life, in love
You can fight
You can fight
Start tonight

You can fight
Yes, that’s right
Don’t let failure
Don’t let doubt
Keep the light out
You are strong
You can beat them
You can win
Find you’re strength within

©2016 C.A. Barnes

Isolation

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Isolation

Isolation
Has left me
Contemplating
Of what will become
Of me
If I don’t break free

Isolation
Will soon lead to
Desolation
If I don’t make
A change
Soon nothing will remain

Isolation
Can be so
Frustrating
Of waiting
Of waiting
For the day
I’ll be escaping
The clutches of its grasp
The sea of its wrath

In isolation
I’m now waking
Up to see
The reality that’s found me
Isolation
I am breaking
I am breaking
Oh I am breaking
Away.

© C.A. Barnes

Be Strong

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Be Strong

Dear friend, where has my strength gone
I’ve been searching for too long
I had it once in my grasp
I held it tightly, should have known it wouldn’t last

When will this end
When can I no longer pretend
When will this end
I need to move on
Life won’t be here for long
Time is slipping away
Something needs to change
I need to be strong

Dear friend, who has stolen my joy
I thought I’d find it in my trinkets and toys
I remember not so long ago
They consumed me such that I couldn’t let go

When will this end
When can I no longer pretend
When will this end
I need to move on
Life won’t be here for long
Time is slipping away
Something needs to change
I need to be strong

I won’t be here for long
Be strong
Move on
Be strong

© 2016 C.A. Barnes

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Love Rushes Over

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Love Rushes Over

I can’t take this anymore
Wasted time
I let my dreams fly out the door
All I’m left with is doubt
And things
I would rather live without
It’s all my fault
It’s my call
I let it sail away
Oh then…

Love rushes over
And saves the day
Love rushes over
Over my way
I don’t need anything anymore
Suddenly all my faith’s restored
When love rushes over

I’m at the bottom of life
Depression
Has consumed all of my mind
I tried to put the past to end
But it’s become
My one and only friend
I feel like I
Been left behind
Invisible is what I’m like
Oh then…

Love rushes over
And saves the day
Love rushes over
Over my way
I don’t need anything anymore
Suddenly all my faith’s restored
When love rushes over

I realized, I have adopted this fate
Sometimes I feel like there’s no escape
From my pain
Oh then
I look to God and
Love saves the day

Love rushes over
And saves the day
Love rushes over
Over my way
I don’t need anything anymore
Suddenly all my faith’s restored
When love rushes over

© 2015 C.A. Barnes

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You’re Free

I said
It’s time to go
I said
It’s the end
Of the show
No more yes to them
It’s no
I said
The tides have turn
Be bold

He said
Strange are you
You see
He said
It’s cool to be different
It’s strength, not weak
He said
What are you waiting for
Can’t you see that
Open door
Don’t hesitate
Go through
Don’t wait…

She said
See it wasn’t so bad
She said
You did it, aren’t you glad
She said
You came back
I knew this would be
She said
One can’t live long
In mediocrity
She said
Don’t feel guilty to smile
She said
You haven’t known joy
For a while

They said
Do what you please
They said
Cause now
You’re free

© 2016 C.A. Barnes

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I’m Free

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I’m Free

Tonight, I’m free
I’m going to be me
I’m going to be free
Today, I let myself go
Release my hair
Release my soul
I don’t care
If I’m too bold

Cause tonight, I’m free
I’m going to be me
I’m going to be free
Today, It’s time to fly
I’m going to set my goals high
Yes believe me
I’m going to try…

Cause tonight, I’m free
I’m going to be me
I’m going to be free
No one–nothing is going to
Get in my way
They won’t decide my fate

Cause tonight, I’m free
I’m going to be me
Finally…I’m free

© 2016 C.A. Barnes

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Letting It Go

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Letting It Go

Call me crazy
Yes I know
But today
I’m letting it go

Everything from years long past
From the good times
That couldn’t last
When joy lived deep inside
It was so abundant
That I couldn’t hide
Oh how life was fun to live
Oh the days were such a gift

Call me crazy
Yes I know
But today
I let it go

All the terrors from seasons gone
When the enemy
Made me weak, not strong
When the tears fell endlessly
So much so, like a raging sea
I was lost, didn’t know where to go
Had no friends
No love…no home

Call me crazy
Yes I know
But today
Everything’s got to go

Out the door
Out my life
Time to clean the slate
Claim what’s mine
I may start alone
But I do know
Eventually, I’ll find a home

Call me crazy
Yes I know
But today
I’m letting it go

© 2016 C.A. Barnes

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Sleep Angel Sleep

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Sleep Angel Sleep

Just rest, close your eyes
Get lost in the world of paradise
Cause today was tough
Kind of rough
Escape, get away from all this stuff

Sleep angel sleep
Let the beauty of slumber
Be all that you keep
Sleep angel escape
Sometimes from this world
We need to get away

Just float, on a bed of clouds
Feel security in what’s safe and sound
Cause life has no guarantees
We struggle
For freedom, for a chance to be

Sleep angel sleep
Let the beauty of slumber
Be all that you keep
Sleep angel escape
Sometimes from this world
We need to get away

We need to get away
From what only wants to prey
Angel fly away
So high, so nothing can bring you
Down to the ground

Sleep angel sleep
Let the beauty of slumber
Be all that you keep
Sleep angel escape
Sometimes from this world
We need to get away

© 2015 C.A. Barnes

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