I Will Not Run Away

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I Will Not Run Away

I’ve watched the sky in all its sorrow

Dressed in their darkest grey

With no signs of tomorrow
I’ve felt their cool drops land on me
They weren’t enough to give me
Any bit of relief

I know I’ve let you down
You’ve watched me drift away
And sink to the ground
I know I’ve lied to you
Said I wouldn’t give up
Yet I did not stay true

It’s like I lost all hope, it’s like I ran away

Years passed like the moon and sun
Eventually I found the courage
To face the world
Knowing there was something to be won
Although doubt sometimes sneaked up on me
I knew soon I would claim victory

I know I’ve let you down
You’ve watched me drift away
And sink to the ground
I know I’ve lied to you
Said I wouldn’t give up
Yet I did not stay true

It’s like I lost all hope, it’s like I ran away

Time will bring us together again
This time around triumph will be the end
I won’t give up
I won’t look the other way
I’m saying this now, today
I will not run away…

I know I’ve let you down
You watched me drift away
And sink to the ground
I know I’ve lied to you
Said I wouldn’t give up
Yet I did not stay true

It’s like I lost all hope, it’s like I ran away

© 2015, 2017 C.A. Barnes

I Will Get There

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I Will Get There

Stay where you are
Where you are
Don’t move
Don’t go too far

Leave everything to me
All the planning
All the packing
I don’t mind
This is easy

I will meet you there
I will see you there
I will get there
Very soon, I’ll be there
And finally this dream
Of how things can be
Will be
Reality

Don’t give up
Don’t resolve to move on
I’d made mistakes
But now I’m awake
This is where I belong

Leave everything to me
All the planning
All the packing
I don’t mind
This is easy

I will meet you there
I will see you there
I will get there
Very soon, I’ll be there
And finally this dream
Of how things can be
Will be
Reality

Thank you for holding on
When the winds were strong
Believing in me
When I was wrong
I travelled everywhere
From here to over there
Never getting anywhere
But you always stayed
Believing someday
I would come back to my senses
And return
To stay

I will meet you there
I will see you there
I will get there
Very soon, I’ll be there
And finally this dream
Of what life could be
Will be
Reality

© 2015 C.A. Barnes

Slipping Away

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Slipping Away

Everything used to be fine
I lived in every moment, savoring time
Cause there was so much time
So much time
To enjoy life, to bask in each sight
There was a lot to do
And nothing to lose
Nothing to leave behind

But now, it’s all
Slipping away
I can’t make anything stay
No matter what I do or say
I don’t know what all of this means
I guess what life’s now telling me
It’s time to rearrange
It’s time to accept what needs to change

Back then, I was filled with hopes and dreams
I often contemplated what would be my fate
Oh I couldn’t wait
I found happiness in what was to come my way
Love abound, life around
Safe and sound
Health and vitality
Success, whatever that means…

But now, it’s all
Slipping away
I can’t make anything stay
No matter what I do or say
I don’t know what all of this means
I guess what life’s now telling me
It’s time to rearrange
It’s time to accept what needs to change

I need to let go
I need to face the future
And know
There are many uncertainties
Things, no matter how hard we try to
We just can’t see
We just can’t see…

Now, it’s all
Slipping away
I can’t make anything stay
No matter what I do or say
I don’t know what all of this means
I guess what life’s now telling me
It’s time to rearrange
It’s time to accept what needs to change

© 2015 C.A. Barnes

Go Away

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Go Away

You caused me pain
Why can’t you
Why can’t you
Just go away

You brought me shame
Why can’t you
Why can’t you
Just go away

I didn’t ask for you to stay
Did everything in my power
To make you disappear
But all my efforts only kept you
Closer, nearer…Here

I’m trying to run from you
You see
Why can’t you
Why can’t you
Just let me be

I’m begging, pleading for you
To leave
Why can’t you
Why can’t you
Just listen to me

I’m letting go of all I love
Starting anew
Praying to the one above
Please let go of me
Release me…set me free

Just go away
Just go away
Just go away…

© 2015 C.A. Barnes

Eyes Are Burning

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Eyes Are Burning

I cannot speak
I cannot see
Can’t open my eyes
Barely recognize me

I thought I was strong
I thought I was right
But I’m so tired
Can’t see the light

My eyes are burning
When will it stop
I need something cool
Before I drop

Can’t do this no more
Don’t know the reasons for
Continuing on
Because I’m only becoming weaker
Not strong

© 2015 C.A. Barnes

I Can Only Be Me

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I Can Only Be Me

I’m speaking the truth
I wish I was you
But I can’t you see
I can only be me

I wish I could live
I wish I could dream
I wish I could be
I wish I could see

I’m speaking the truth
I wish I was you
But I can’t you see
I can only be me

I wish I could smile
I wish I could fly
I wish I could dance
I wish I could have the chance

I’m speaking the truth
I wish I was you
But I can’t you see
I can only be me

I wish for all these things
I wish for the joy they bring
But not today
Perhaps tomorrow
At least that’s not far away…

© 2015 C.A. Barnes

Let The Rain Fall

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Let The Rain Fall

It’s been a long time
Since I’ve seen you
All this time, I’ve been wandering
Waiting for the day to prove

That I not insane
That I know what I’m doing
I know my place
And when the storms roll
Threatening peace
That’s when others leave
But that’s when I feel free

Let the rain fall
Let it wash all the past away
Let the rain fall
I welcome it to bring what it may
Let the rain fall
I need some cool waters on me
Let the rain fall
I need to feel some relief

You don’t show up as often
Like you used to, how I wish you would
Return like a dear old friend
Convince me that I’m not going mad again

I’m not insane
I know what I was doing
I know my place
When the storms roll
Threatening peace
That’s when others leave
But that’s when I feel free

Let the rain fall
Let it wash all the past away
Let the rain fall
I welcome it to bring what it may
Let the rain fall
I need some cool waters on me
Let the rain fall
I need to feel some relief

© 2015 C.A. Barnes

Only You

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Only You

Yesterday, I  strong
Nothing in this world could go wrong
Hope lived by my door
There wasn’t a thing to wish for

But today
So much has changed
I’ve lost control
I need to be whole

Only you
Could bring this back to me
Only you
Could mend my heart, and set me free
Only you
I believe
Only you

Yesterday, there was peace
The future was bright with certainty
Love was near
Life was here

But today
So many have went away
I’m filled with much fear
I can’t help but to shed tears

Only you
Could bring this back to me
Only you
Could mend my heart, and set me free
Only you
I believe
Only you

Only you
Can restore what was lost
Make things better, settle the costs
Make me stronger than before
Only you can give me so much more
Than I had before…

Only you
Can bring me peace
Heal a village, a nation
Set them free
Only you
Can mend my heart
Heal the pain, bring ones together
Who were once apart
Only you
Can show us love
Only you
Only you
Only you

© 2012 C. A. Barnes

On And On

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On And On

I’m trying, surviving
The same thing
Goes on and on

I’m dreaming, believing
The same thing
Goes on and on

I’m fighting, never dying
The same thing
Goes on and on

I’m waiting, anticipating
The same thing
Goes on and on

And I’m still strong
Seeking the right
Avoiding the wrong
Waiting for the light
To shine on this voice of song

I’m seeing, achieving
The same thing
Goes on and on

I’m fighting, never dying
The whole thing
Goes on and on

I’m chanting, endlessly dancing
The same thing
Goes on and on

I’m fighting, never dying
The same thing
Goes on and on

© 2005 C.A. Barnes

We Change

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We Change

She falls apart
She watches things fall apart
She confuses her heart
Then gets lost
And doesn’t know where to start
But it’s okay
It’s okay
He says
Don’t be afraid
He says
To change
Please change

He faces the unknown
He’s destined to make mistakes
But that’s how he grows
He’s like a wanderer
With no where to go
But secretly hoping to find a home
It’s okay
It’s okay
She says
Don’t be afraid
She says
To be brave
Please be brave

Cause we face
Many things
We confuse
Some hearts, especially ours
But it’s okay
To start again
Don’t be afraid
He says
Cause we change
Cause we can change

© 2015 C.A. Barnes

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